Restoration

Throughout this few past week..i have been gone through alot of hard times in my spiritual walk. It's not because of that I didn't dig into the words or didn't worship him...the thing that have bothered me is my relationship with my mom. Cause this year, I have been taking some hard classes and one of them is Chem. which is my weakest subject..science..>< . When i heard this word, i would be so frustrated and i would run around the house crying to God "save me!!!wa....didn't you said that all the science is all fake lord?? then just take me out of this class....wa...!(lol...i maybe alittle kuku here...lol...) Anyways...so i have been trying my best to survive in this class since my teacher is also the hardest chem. teacher in my school.....wa....thinking of this had made me even more frustrated....>< But, even though i have been studying like my head is going to be blow out any minute, my mom still always cretisis me like she don't encrouge me instead she talk about my bad things...and i always felt that she don't see that i have done my best. Therefore, i would go to my room and pray about it and i will cry out to God and I tell him to mold me and shape me to be more and more like him each day, and ask him what can i do to restore my relationship with my mom. Even though I have been always shareing with my mom my feelings and tell her what is strageling in my life, but this time i don't know why it's especially hard to tell her.

When I went to church today, the most incredible thing had happened...God had talked to me! And it's through Jack's thermine today...^^ Jack had talked about that if someone cretisis you, you can't just hate that person back, instead we should talk positive things about that person to other people and we should also hug them..:) But, if this things had made you cry you shouldn't cry it for yourself, instead you should save those tears to cry out to God and not to youself!After the thermine sala had felt that this thermine God had talked to me..because before church i had told her what had troubled me in my life. Then she told me that i should tell mom about what i feel.

Therefore, after i have got home, i had gave my mom a BIG hug, and i told her everything. But, after that most shocking thing had my mom had said to me is that she acttrally know that i have been trying my best and she just thought that i could make it more better. Then at that night, the four of us, my mom, sala, alice, and me ate dinner and i could already tell that my mom is starting to encorageing me because even when i ate alot of carrats she encorages me. And i was like..you don't have to encorage me in this situation..but it was really nice...!!

Throughout this day, i am so happy that God had restored my relationship with my mom and he had also talked to me again....!! I love you God..!!! You are AWSOME!! :)

Love&Peace